Oct 03 2008
Rough Days.
This past week has felt really tough on the homeschooling front, but I’m not real sure why. Nothing major has happened to take up our time. We’ve had some fun playdates, got some neat project ideas from our advisor, and yet I just feel like I’m spinning my wheels, not moving.
I did a lot of reading before making the decision and commitment to homeschool, so I’d read plenty of homeschoolers discuss the bad days. Somehow I thought the bad days were when mom or the kids were sick, or there was some upheaval in the household. Maybe it is. Maybe the bla-s I’m feeling this week don’t actually qualify as bad, just, bla.
When I take a step back and look at things objectively, I think the homeschooling has been going fine. It’s the rest of my life that’s been overwhelming. I had a bunch of writing deadline all land on top of each other, so I had several late nights in a row. That’s left me tired, and. . .well, bla.
Juggling work (as in a job, and working from home to boot) homeschooling, and regular life stuff is still a skill I haven’t mastered yet. I don’t switch mental gears quickly, so it makes it hard to go back and forth from one thing to another. I don’t feel like it’s undoable, but I’m just not doing it well yet.
Now on top of feeling overwhelmed and fractured, I’m rambling in my blog. Sorry to take you down with me. I do have a few thoughts on more solid posts to make, but I can’t seem to pull them into focus in my mind tonight. But I’ll be back to coherent thought soon.
The message for tonight is, brain and/or emotional overload happen. I’m trying to remember that it’s all just inside me. My family says it isn’t spilling out as much as it feels. It’s just hard to see that things are still good when everything is filtered through my own temporarily flawed perceptions.
Sometimes things really aren’t as bad as you think.
